race walking....??

i've been feeling a little bit "un-me" lately, and i can't exactly put my finger on it. the let down of not ironman training always gets me a little bit flustered. i didn't think it was that because it kinda just started....and it's been a over a month now since IMAZ. then again, maybe it took me this long to catch back up to regular-self mode, and now i'm ready for more action??

i went on one bike ride since IMAZ, and it really really hurt my hamstring so i decided i probably need to wait a bit longer. not to mention, i hate riding when it's cold. i also attempted a small run, which actually made me more depressed than anything because, to be honest, it hurt. not the fitness aspect. i was actually surprised at how fit i felt. i felt like i could have easily run 6 miles and i've taken a whole month off. my hamstring, hip, pubic bone, and ankle definitely hurt though. not necessarily during.....but after. i was so sad. this is what wikipedia says about my pubic bone:

"This inflammation leads to sclerosis and bony changes of the pubis symphysis, causing both acute and chronic groin pain. The condition can render sufferers incapable of sustained physical activity. There is no specific treatment for the condition and it can seriously affect the careers of footballers affected by it." **red=not good**

for my ironman training i just wore a belt that held all my bones together. it felt good. well, aside from the chaffing that ensued where the belt would rub during my 3+ hour runs. that's all superficial. if my bones stay in place i'm a happy girl.

running is what i love!!! love, love, love. my focus though is being healthy because i want to run forever!!! if i want to ever run boston i'm going to have to run until i'm at least 50 to qualify. i see people run through injuries all the time, so i want to too. but i won't.

people keep asking me what races i'm signed up for this year. nothing. i know if i sign up for a race i will run no matter what. that will be my little excuse, just like last year. me: "yeah, i'm injured, but after this race i'll take some time off". i said that for the last 20 months. i probably deserve to be sidelined for 6 months or so. agh! i feel like a toddler, i just want to lay on the floor and pound my fists and cry. i won't though. i have a plan.

well. i've had it for a while now.....but now i'm going to implement this plan. i'm definitely getting squishy and soft. i don't like that. white, squishy, and soft. NOT a good combo. where are my tan, firm, muscley, ironman legs?!?!?!?! i hate this. some people take lots of time off and get faster. maybe that will be me? i love fast. fast is good. oh yeah. so my plan that i WILL implement. ooooh. i'm putting it in writing. i think that means i have to do it.

1. start the 100 push-up challenge (again).

2. start the fun circuit training thingy i printed.

3. do core work (this is on every to-do list i've ever written, fyi)

i also think i need to make a new blog. when i started this whole blogging thing. i didn't think i'd really do it all the time and keep doing it. but i have things to write about that aren't ironman and the title ironkatyinaz.....just doesn't apply anymore. so...i think i will. keep your eyes peeled for the new blog url. maybe i'll even make it ALL pink, ALL the time. :)

4. maybe i'll start race walking........