More to Life Than Ironman

First of all let me say that of course there is more to life than ironman and i of course know that, but if i want to train well and race well and feel good on ironman day i need to pretend it's not true. (did that make sense?). I thought going into this post that I was really behind on my posting, but now that I'm looking at the calendar i'm NOT really too behind. The last two weeks have not been the best in terms of focused training. The last month has been quite the emotional, physical, roller-coaster.......which when training for an ironman is not allowed. I have to say though at this point in my minor crisis I'm able to put a positive spin on things as the challenge of this month has really taught me a lot about myself. Most importantly that it's ok for people to take care of me (which i'm not very good at). I feel like a mirror was placed in front of me allowing to look at myself and evaluate myself (not always a good thing!) BUT it allowed me to see what i need to and WANT to change so I can get better!! I approach my whole life I think with one philosophy and that is "to get better". My training has really had a huge impact on my life. You can use a lot of tough race day strategies on tough life day issues. I'm so thankful for my "support crew" in training and my "support crew" in life (mostly the same people). If not for them i couldn't race the way I want to, and if not for them I wouldn't live the way I want to. Although this month has been tough, it's also been amazing to realize how much I am loved when my tough-guy-i'm-always-fine-walls are down. I just can't say enough about that...I'm comforted knowing now that ANY time i have a problem I can depend on my friends to rally and be there! :) So, I also really realized (and this is along the same lines) through talking with my friend Mary (who I'm constantly sending postive healthy thoughts too!!) that it is OK to just be SAD! she reminded me that although my job keeps me grounded with constant reality checks. it's still ok to be sad and feel sad when sucky things happen! oh, how i appreciate her. i had no idea how much being sad would effect my training, but it really really did. I think i'm finally on the othe side of the line.....recovering and mentally preparing to be tough Katymoe again and really train hard b/c truely it's what i LOVE and that is when my eyes are wide open to EVERYTHING. i'm finally in a place where i'm looking forward to new adventures in my life, looking forward to kicking my ass training, to being 100%. I'm making changes and I like them. I'm sure i'm not out of the sad woods yet, but i'm definately getting there. again my amazing friends i can't thank you enough. i might still be sleeping on the floor if it weren't for erica, i might be alphabetizing my fridge if it weren't for "the girls" from work. i might be laying on the couch all day if it weren't for becky/lea/rachel and all my running buddies. i might be crying alone if it weren't for my wonderful mom. and i might not remember to let people take care of me if it weren't for miss mary. really this wasn't supposed to be a bummer post, it was supposed to say I'M READY! for what's next. I'M READY to start training! thanks again for listening.....and one of these days i'll actually let you know how my training is GOING! PS i'm racing next weekend in FREMONT, just a sprint. but i'll be up there with the Just us Girls team trying to remind myself how to go FAST!!! Stay tuned for a fun race report and hopefully some serious miles/yards (yes, in the pool, i may actually get in a pool this week!).

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